arghh, fu** my blogskins ! i felt so lazy to change & edit ): final court-date is reaching, 15jan2010 . such a bad thing to happen on a 'new year' . sigh, th sad feeling is still there . felt like running from reality & everything, but will running away solve my problem ? )-: in th start, i chose to pick a fight with you is bcze i wanted to have a break-up so tt i won't feel hurt when it's time to leave you . but now, we're always quarrelling now & then . why, issit bcze the feelings & love between us isn't th same as before alrdy ? each time i told myself not to be sensitive, not to be over-protective but why th fu** just can't i do it ? i didn't want all this quarrels & brk-up each time but sad to say th feelings you gave me is so different, so different tt i felt unloved & meaningless to carry on . if i know being with you things will turn out lidat in th end, i rather stop everything from starting . * STOP ALL THIS PAIN, HURT, QUARREL, FIGHT, TEARS & BREAK-UPS ! i really do love you with all my heart, trying my vr best to treat you even better than ur ex but it just seems like no matter hw gd i do or be they'll always be perfect wheares iam th vice versa . ): if loving you is to let you find ur real happiness, i'll choose to let go .
18 more days & yuting is gona say byebye )': iam so sad & depressed in my heart, how to ease th pain ? sigh ...